So today I decided to clean out my closet and I went from having 1 pair of jeans to 4! A couple of months ago I bought a pair of jeans size 18 cause everything else was too small. I didnt get any size bigger cause I really didnt have the heart to tell myself that I may be a size 20. Needless to say, the 18s were quite tight. Flash forward to today...my 18s are pretty baggy and some old size 16s fit my perfectly and I was even able to squeeze myself into some 14s!! I really hadn't noticed any difference in myself but yea...I can't believe it!
I don't understand why I let myself get hurt all over again. Why do I open my heart all over again, knowing that it can get crushed. He needs space. He needs time. Then he shall have it. All I ever wanted was for him to be happy. I would have gone to the end of the world for him. I feel so angry and hurt and bleeeegghhh. Btw, I'm really digging this song
"Semen is not only nutritious, but has a palatable texture and wonderful cooking properties. It's a widely available ingredient and the flavor is complex like a fine wine. Depending on the male's diet, the flavor will vary."
Ok, I could offer you tons of awesome Thanksgiving advice. But I won't fool myself...or should I say full myself? eh eh? I mean, don't get me wrong I've read a lot of great tips lately...but they are the type of tips that sound awesome in writing but when it comes to the nitty gritty...as in, when I'm face to face with an all-the-weight-you've-lost sized turkey and some of that you're-seriously-gonna-need-a-power-nap-after-that stuffing and who can forget the are-you-seriously-trying-to-pass-those-for-veggies green bean casserole or the...well, I lost my point. So anyways, here are my awesome Thanksgiving tips:
1- GIVE AWAY LEFTOVERS! Seriously, if you are fond of those day after turkey gravy cranberry stuffing sandwiches (like me) then leftovers are not you're friend. You don't want to make a 1 day treat last you the whole week. Just find the first homeless person you see and when he asks you for some money to eat just say "TODAY IS YOUR LUCKY DAY!" and give him the eight ziplock bags of food. Then you can watch him glare at you cause everyone knows you can't exchange sweet potatoes for crack.
2- RELAX! Contrary to what we may believe, guilt does not burn calories. Most of us will overeat tomorrow. That is a fact. But we can't kill ourselves over it. I mean, working out a little bit extra the day after is fine but just don't overdo it. Take it easy and enjoy the food. Cause if you're gonna eat a whole bunch of food and instead of enjoying it you're just cringing over the possible pounds you may gain, then its not even worth it.
So, thats it! Those are my two main rules for Thanksgiving. Yea I know...I'm not very strict. Oh wells.
This weekend was not a good one. Not at all. For the first time in a long while I got the urge to eat. It's like this nervous tick. I get this horribly urge to eat junk food. I don't even enjoy it! I just stick it in my mouth, chew, swallow, and repeat. It all started on friday, when I decided to treat myself to some KFC. While I was eating I realized I was getting full but instead of stopping...I just ate the whole thing. And it was all down hill from there. When I got home, I had to raid the fridge for something to snack on. Am I the only one that does this? When I can't find anything good to eat, I just start putting things together. Not like I start baking up some cookies. Nah, I'm too lazy for that. But I get random foods and just put them together to resemble some vague item that might be edible. Then I eat it and it seems to taste so freakin delicious until the very last bite and thats when I ask myself, "what the fuck did I just eat?" This morning I don't know whether I ate a lot of junk food, or just punched myself repeatedly in the stomach. Blegh. Maybe if I work really hard this week I can make up...OH WAIT...this week is Thanksgiving. Darn it all...
I really wasn't sure if I was going to lose any weight this week cause I ate a lot of junk food in the weekend but then again I was really sick during the week. So yea... we go from losing 5 to .5...better than nothing :D
Starting weight: 256 lbs
Current weight: 229.5 lbs
Weight loss this week: .5 lbs
Total weight loss: 26.5 lbs
ok, last week I didn't post my weight...cause I didn't really lose any. Then my weekend was a big confusing mess due to reasons I've already explained. I'll be honest, I really haven't been eating as much as I should be so I wouldnt say I did well this week. But I did lose some weight so...yays!
Starting weight: 256 lbs
Current weight: 230 lbs
Weight loss this week: 5 lbs
Total weight loss: 26 lbs
This weekend has probably been one of the worst I've ever had. It seems my boyfriend met a girl about three days ago. And she must be some kind of awesome cause he's decided to be with her instead of me. Our relationship has been stressful and wonderful at the same time. So its just hard to believe that after almost three years, its over. But I figure if he is already sleeping with another girl, then this is most likely not the guy for me. I honestly wish him the best cause after all, I really do love him. So if he isn't losing any sleep over this, then neither will I.
Things are falling apart and I don't have enough arms to pick up the pieces. Where do I go from here? I'm so lost and confused. I'm usually not one to beg, but I'd give anything for things to go back to the way they used to be. I just feel so...left behind. Whatever happens, you know I love you but if you feel this is for the best then I'm not going to stop you. 2 1/2 years < 1 night who woulda thought
Some of the things I've learned since I've been on a diet is that weight loss does not happen overnight. Pretty obvious, right? But that hasn't stopped me from wishing I'd wake up one day being about 50 lbs lighter. The reason why I wished I'd lose weight as fast as humanly possible is cause I'm not happy with the way I look. Even though I'm working on it, I still feel that I should love myself regardless of the number on the scale. So I decided to look up some other people that are a little on the heavy side. Plus sized or full-figured models. I was absolutely shocked to find how many there are out there. Not only that but they are so proud of their bodies! Now I'm not saying that its ok to be overweight, but I am saying that everyone should love themselves...no matter what they currently look like.
So full-figured friday is gonna start off with an up and coming model called Whitney Thompson. She was the first plus sized woman to win America's Next Top Model and even though she is only a size 10 (not all that plus, if you ask me) she is still beautiful and inspiring.
ok...14 not 10...damn you Wikipedia...though she looks more of a 10 than 14
Thanks Tony! woo hoo, my first tag! ok, 6 interesting things about me...let us begin!
1- About two years ago I went to Kenya on a volunteer trip for about a month. We built a classroom and did some teaching. Oh, I was 216 lbs at the time and I still managed to keep up so yays! I was also sick for the whole trip. Not yays.
2- I am fluent in english and spanish (which is my first language) and I also took 2 years of french. So...uh...yays...el yays...le yays...
3- I love to bake soooo much...yum yum yum.
4- I am a Disney nut. It must be some sort of attachment to my childhood or something, but I really do love it.
5- I like to play video games casually...yes, I am a casual gamer. My current obsession is WOW. It doesn't inspire me to work out though. But what I do is when I'm flying to some location, I do some jumping jacks or something...that way I don't feel so freaking lazy.
6- I'm so terribly shy. Its not even funny. When I talk to people I get really awkward and strange. And not in a charming way. I don't think. Sometimes I don't know how to keep a conversation going so I start to ask random questions. Maybe I should interview people for a living...
7- I love making random noises, jokes, and puns *Academy Awards music starts to play* oh...Is it time to go already? It was only six? oh...Well you got a bonus one!
I'm having one of those moments where I'm dreading the scale. I just don't feel like I've lost any weight. I kind of messed up in the weekend but I worked hard during the week to get back on track. In fact, I was kind of hoping the hurricane would blow away the WW scale and I wouldnt have to weigh myself this week but alas, it was scared too. Blegh, I'll just have to weight until tonight....you see what I did there? A little play on words? No?...nevermind then.
Uhg...I kinda ate a lot this weekend. It wasnt what I ate but how much. I mean, one WW ice cream pop is good but when you eat 3...yea, that might give you an idea of the weekend I had. Anyways, I can't mope about it now. What I can mope about however is the rain that is keeping me from going swimming. Poo.
Everything has been pretty boring lately. Just doing le same ol' dieting. So I've decided to spice things up with a couple of treats (and meals) you can get at Disneyworld. Trust me, I've gone a couple of times and I always come back with my jeans fitting a little tighter...
Ok, I finally decided to come back to my dear blog. I've been dealing with a couple of situations and I'm getting back on track diet-wise. Anywho, I decided to join Weight Watchers last thursday. I don't know...I just feel like I need some support and its kinda nice being amongst people with a common goal. So my weigh in day has officially been changed to thursday. Anyways...its good to be back! I hope someone missed me out there!
I'm kinda all blogged out. I just don't feel inspired to write anything. I worked so hard last week but I didn't lose a pound and that seriously bothers me. I guess I'm just really depressed. I feel like a total failure in every way shape and form. I just don't know.
I made some peanut butter cookies yesterday and they looked just as delicious as they tasted. The only thing was that when I went to photograph them the pictures came out either too dark or too flashy. And it happens every time that I take a picture of something I cook...no matter what I do, the pictures never do them justice. Oy vay...
In case you hadn't seen those new ads promoting high-fructose corn syrup...well, here they are:
Like many other people, I grew up being told that corn syrup was just as bad as sugar except less...natural. I guess its fine in moderation but little by little that stuff adds up fast. Anyways, what do you guys think?
With all the mess of my boyfriend moving away, I didn't even weigh myself. Not only that but I can't help but notice that I spent the whole weekend compulsively eating. I wouldn't even taste the food, I'd just stick it in my mouth. Poo. So frankly, I'm scared to death to weigh myself. Ugh, this is gonna suck so hard...
It turns out that my boyfriend is gonna move away to Miami this weekend and I'm so bummed out. We're gonna go from seeing each other every day to not seeing each other for months at a time. I mean, he's definitely my main source of strength and support and now he's not gonna be around. It totally sucks...
Yea...I didn't weigh myself this week cause I've spent the whole weekend at the beach. Actually, I was mostly at the pool. Even though at the beginning I was a little self conscious, I just decided to ignore everyone and focus on having fun. And it worked, though a little too much cause I think I've been snacking continuously for the last 3 days.
I love to swim. I think it's a great way to work out without feeling all huffy and sweaty. Of course, I swim at my on pace...which isn't necessarily everyone else's. Since I swim in this big natatorium, I always feel like a big ol' manatee floating about compared to the other slick swimmers. Everyone else is in they're tiny tight speedos and they're fancy gear swimming theyre hearts out. Even though I'm sure they aren't paying attention to me, it still makes me self conscious. But as long as I keep swimming, soon I'll be as slick as they are. It's just like in Finding Nemo...just keep swimming, just keep swimming...
Since Slashfood has been posting lots of pics of creative bento boxes, I've decided to post some I've found around the web. A bento is a single-portion takeout or home-packed meal common in Japanese cuisine. A traditional bento consists of rice, fish or meat, and one or more pickled or cooked vegetables as a side dish. Bento can be very elaborately arranged. Contests are often held where homemakers can compete for the most aesthetically pleasing arrangements. The food is often decorated to look like people, animals, or characters and items such as flowers and plants.
Last night I saw a really interesting documentary about people with Prader Willie Syndrome. People with PWS have an extreme and insatiable appetite, often resulting in morbid obesity and they also have some learning difficulties. I found it really interesting and touching so I figured that I'd post it.
Just saw on Slashfood that there is a game coming out for wii this fall called Iron Chef America: Supreme Cuisine. Part of me is excited to hell and another part of me is nervous that it might be a cheap Cooking Mama meets crappy American Idol game...or something of the sort. But either way, it sounds interesting. Though I'm surprised that I don't see Chef Bobby Flay around (even though he sticks his face onto evertything possible).
I think I might have some sort of alcohol intolerance because I had a bit to drink today and I suddenly felt really hot, my ears got super red, and I got a bad headache. I hardly ever drink cause I don't really like the taste of alcohol and if this is how I'm gonna get, I don't ever want to drink.
Well, I lost .9 lbs which is almost a pound...which means I DIDN'T gain any weight Which is good. I mean, I kinda wish the weight would come off a little faster but I don't want to be unhealthy. Anywho, ta-ta for now!
So I'd thought I'd do this thing that I stole from FLG, which he stole from Dietgirl. The title pretty much says it all. It's a list of 8 things I'd like to do before I die. Which hopefully won't happen in a long time.
1-Write a book: I'm not sure what kind of book. Maybe an inspirational type or a children's book, I don't know yet. All I know is that I want to see my work published, so everyone can read it. I want my voice to be heard.
2- See the world: I want to travel. I want to travel all over the world. There are so many beautiful places to see, people to meet, things to try. There are so many different cultures, and I want to experience them all. My tops are definitively Japan, Europe, Australia, Alaska, and China. Erhm, so pretty much everything.
3- Win an award: I've never won an award for anything and I don't know what I'd win one for. All I know is that I want one.
4- Grow a garden: Whether its just a couple of plants or a vegetable garden. I want one so I can take care of something. Plant it myself, nurture it, and watch it grow into something beautiful. Sort of like having children except without the fear of messing them up.
5- Learn to drive: Trust me, if you lived in PR you'd understand why I'm scared shitless of driving. The idea of driving here makes me so nervous, its almost unbearable. So one day I hope to toss those fears aside and become MOBILE!!!
6- Live in a big city: Even if its until I go insane, I want to live in an important big city. I want to feel like I'm in the center of everything. Whether its being in the capital of fashion, food, movies, technology; I don't care, I want to be there. Of course, I run the risk of getting attacked by a huge monster/natural disaster...cause you know how they love attacking big cities.
7- Go bungee jumping/skydiving: I want to take life to the extreme! Cause y'know, I don't go through enough dangerous circumstances in my daily life. I want to conquer my fears. Cause I'm not scared of heights...I'm just scared shitless of falling hundreds of feet to certain doom.
8- Love myself: I've always had really low self-esteem. Even when I was little. I've always been so shy and quiet and thought so little of myself. Well I want that to stop. I want to feel beautiful and be proud of who I am. I want to hold my head high and not think I'm less than anyone around me. I want to not care what anyone says or thinks, except for me. I want to care about me.
I found this recipe on http://recipes.sparkpeople.com and it's really good! The muffins are lower in fat because they have nonfat milk and only egg whites. Plus it has less sugar (cause the apple sauce is sweet) and its also whole wheat. The site says they are about 93.5 calories for each muffin which is pretty awesome! I'm thinking for next time, I'll add some grated apple, nuts, and maybe raisins.
1 cup old fashion rolled oats (not instant)
1 cup non-fat milk
1 cup whole wheat flour
1/2 cup brown sugar
1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce
2 egg whites
1 tsp. baking powder
1/2 tsp. baking soda
1/2 tsp. salt
1 1/2 tsp. cinnamon
1 tsp. sugar (I used brown sugar)
raisins or nuts (optional)
Soak the oats in milk for about half an hour.
Preheat the oven to 375 degrees.
Spray muffin pan with cooking spray.
Combine the oat mixture with the applesauce and egg whites, and mix until combined.
In a separate bowl measure and whisk the flour, baking soda, baking powder, salt, and 1/2 tsp of cinnamon. Add wet ingredients to dry and mix until just combined. Add nuts or raisins if desired.
Do not over mix the batter or the muffins will be tough. Spoon muffin mixture into muffin pan (I use an ice cream scoop).
Combine the rest of the cinnamon and sugar and top each muffin with some of the mixture.
Bake for 15-20 minutes or until done.
Remove from pan, cool and enjoy.
These can be frozen and reheated in the microwave for a quick breakfast.
I've decided that this week is gonna be different! I'm gonna work harder than I've ever worked before. I'm gonna stretch every muscle. I'm gonna count every calorie. I'm gonna portion every...uhm...portion! Exercise will be done. Cravings will be ignored. Changes will be made!!...yea, I'm having one of those epic moments again.
Do you know what are the basic tastes that our tongue can recognize? As far as I knew there were only 4: bitterness, saltiness, sourness, and sweetness. But did you know there was a fifth basic taste. It's umami or savoryness. Umami is the name for the taste sensation produced by compounds such as glutamate, and are commonly found in fermented and aged foods. In English, it is also described as "meatiness", "relish", or "savoriness". The term comes from the Japanese word 'umai' for yummy, keen, or nice. Apparently, humans have taste receptors for the detection of amino acids (which are the building blocks of protein). So yea...now you know!
I'm a little bummed out today. Ok, a lot. I've been having lots of problems with school lately. Mostly because my parents don't really support my decisions and won't help me pay for anything. So now I seems that I have to get a job but it's easier said than done. Unless my blog because uber popular over night and everyone feels like clicking on those annoying ads...I'm officially on the job hunt.
Well, this WOULD be the time of day where I post my weight loss results of the week...EXCEPT THERE AREN'T ANY! Thats right folks, I GAINED weight. .7lbs to be exact. Except for monday, I've eaten healthfully and worked out...I just don't understand!!! I'm so frustrated right now.
Since the Olympics are in full effect, I think its only obvious that I talk about the American Aquaman...Michael Phelps!
Mr. Phelps eats about 12,000 a day while he's training. Yep, you read correctly. That's almost 10 thousand more than most mere mortals should eat. Do you want to know what his breakfast consists of?
— three fried egg sandwiches with cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, fried onions, and mayo
— one five-egg omelets
— a bowl of grits
— three slices of French toast with powdered sugar
— three chocolate chip pancakes
— two cups of coffee
Obviously, this is ok for an olympic athlete who burns thousands of calories per workout...but wow.