guess what....

So today I decided to clean out my closet and I went from having 1 pair of jeans to 4! A couple of months ago I bought a pair of jeans size 18 cause everything else was too small. I didnt get any size bigger cause I really didnt have the heart to tell myself that I may be a size 20. Needless to say, the 18s were quite tight. Flash forward to today...my 18s are pretty baggy and some old size 16s fit my perfectly and I was even able to squeeze myself into some 14s!! I really hadn't noticed any difference in myself but yea...I can't believe it!

wooosh

I'm not really in the mood to write much so I'll just leave you with the numbers. Obviously I didnt weigh myself last week so yea...

Starting weight: 256 lbs
Current weight: 226.5 lbs
Weight loss this week: 3 lbs
Total weight loss: 29.5 lbs

wooo hooo!!

meh

I don't understand why I let myself get hurt all over again. Why do I open my heart all over again, knowing that it can get crushed. He needs space. He needs time. Then he shall have it. All I ever wanted was for him to be happy. I would have gone to the end of the world for him. I feel so angry and hurt and bleeeegghhh. Btw, I'm really digging this song